*I AM SUPERWOMAN*

So....its been a long 4 days. Dad got admitted into the hospital after coming to the ER Thursday evening. [*SiGH...] I wish there was something I could do for him. I'm a Daddy's girl... and i'll gladly proclaim it.

I hate that he's sick...
I wish I could take away the pain, the sickness and everything that is involved in it.

Alicia Keys has a song titled "Super Woman" ...



There are days I wish I had super powers...and I truly believe we all have SUPER abilities, but there are those days, the days when your spirit feels defeated. Where even the slightest emotion of crying seems too hard to handle. People think I'm rude and mean. Along with any other word you can conceive in your mind. In all reality...I'm too busy taking care of my family, that it gives no time to  give in to the influence of back-biting, backstabbing, gossip, etc. My life consists of assisting with the health of my Father and my brother, all while trying to keep mom sane. In no way am I  trying to gain sympathy...I love that I am able to take care of the people who mean the most to me. I have an amazing family and I wouldn't change it for the world.

When I feel that life has got it's best of me, I simply remind myself that...

I AM SUPERWOMAN!!!!!

We are not Losers...We are Lasers!

I was so excited...i just had to share!

No more petitions, stop the protests... we finally have a release date. March 8, 2011...Lupe Fiasco's oft-awaited 3rd album will finally be ours!! First single to be released, Tuesday, October 26, 2010 via www.lupefiasco.com!

If you havent experienced the lyricism of the Chicago born Rapper...you're missing out.

As stated by Lupe himself:
"Lasers are the opposite of losers. Lasers are shining beams of light that burn through the darkness of ignorance. Lasers shed light on injustice and inequality. Losers stand by and let things happen. Lasers act and shape their own destinies. Lasers find meaning and direction in the mysteries all around them. Lasers stand for love and compassion. Lasers stand for peace. Lasers stand for progression. Lasers are revolutionary. Lasers Are The Future. We are Not losers...We Are LASERS!!!" -L.F.

I can't control the excitement. :)

Blessings to a Lasers filled day! FNF-UP!

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The Colors of Change

We all enjoy the colors of autumn leaves. The changing fall foilage never fails to surprise and delight us. Do you ever wonder why and how a fall leaf changes color? Where do the yellow and orange colors come from? WHY DO LEAVES CHANGE COLOR?

I began to imagine our lives as those of leaves. We (humans) have the same sort of changing process and in it is a beautiful scientific reasoning. Change is needed to become better. And God made us for better.

We live in a culture bent toward self-improvement. We spend a lot of time analyzing ourselves and trying to figure out how to make the bad, better. From time to time, we all notice areas in our lives that we struggle with; Areas we wish could be different.

We fear people knowing the "bad" part of us... because in all reality, who wants to be known as the "mean, angry, snobby" woman/man? However, if we try to hide the unacceptable parts of our personalities, we can rapidly lose touch with who we truly are. 

Occasionally, I struggle with my thoughts as previously read. I dont confide much in others and I rarely shed a tear. We often have little choice regarding the people and circumstances God brings into our lives, but I have come to learn (slowly) that I am becoming the person God wants me to be. Not who my coworker, church folk, family, friends, or acquaintances want me to be. But, that in which God created me to be. 

The leaves flow with the process that God designed. The only limit to change in our lives, is the degree in which we don't reveal ourselves. 

John Powell said this:

"We think we have to change, grow and be good in order to be loved. But rather we are loved and we receive His grace so we can change, grow and be good."

I hope you are all in good spirits. Enjoy this beautiful Autumn evening... :)    

Devotions...in a sense...are MAGICAL!

As you've read, I've been struggling with the fact that I worry too much, And am allowing myself to become confused with this whole "life" thing as we know it.

I've always known that God created me for a purpose. The dreams he implanted in my spirit are to be flourished. The strength he has instilled in my body is needed to overcome. And the trust he has placed in my heart comes to my rescue in times of perseverance.

I was reading my daily devotion this a.m. and it truly spoke to my situation. Here's an excerpt:

"...you may be frustrated because you feel God's plan isn't working in your life. But never fear, God is arranging all the pieces to come together to work out his plan for your life. Don't grow impatient. Don't try and make things work in your own strength. When its God's timing, all the forces of darkness can't stop him. In due season, God will bring it to pass."

Adversities and hardships are opportunities for us to go higher. What an amazing confirmation.

I may not have all the money, beauty, or brains in the world...but the comfort in knowing my God will NEVER forsake me is enough to fill any void.

.b.

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I think i'm a rehabilitating worry wart...

I was told today that i rarely do any posts... It's true.

But, lately I've been so busy... I barely have time to sleep(about 3-4 hrs). I guess it's a good thing to be busy, but some days.. it's too much to handle.

Truth be told... my time-less life is not as bad as I make it sound. Some days God gives a little more "umpf" to my day and I feel like I can't control it. I literally feel insane... my brain goes on overload and I tweak. I understand worrying is a normal human function, but I yearn for the day where worrying is no longer in my vocabulary. I want,  I crave, I desire, I NEED to NO longer worry.

I'm learning: Worrying accomplishes NOTHING. Worrying is a mental burden and sometimes causes us to become physically sick. Worrying pushes you in an entirely different direction then that which you are supposed to be trekking. AND... Worrying is the opposite of trusting God.

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

(Philippians 4:6-7)

Life is about how we choose to see things. Even in the difficult times, when it seems like no one cares, I can put my trust in knowing that God cares for my EVERY need. I'd like to spend my time more wisely and enjoyably...

How do you deal with worry?? I'd like to know.

Blessings to all! :)

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.

Each day has enough trouble of its own.

(Matthew 6:34)

S.O.S.

Confusion is defined as the inability to think with your usual speed or clarity, including feeling disoriented and having difficulty paying attention, remembering, and making decisions.

I feel like Atlas...carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. And still, I push, grind, persevere just to get over the mountain. Some days I feel I can't continue. I WANT to give up. Take the easy way out. I'm no quitter, but it seems as if that's my only option. To throw in the towel. Wave the flag. 

Then...Jiminy Cricket...my conscience speaks to my soul: Why should I count myself out when God still sees potential in me?

I'm stuck pondering these words.

Psalm 145:14 (The Message)
God gives a hand to those down on their luck, gives a fresh start to those ready to quit.

It Gets Under Your Skin...

This weekend I was able to visit the controversial "Bodies:The Exhibition" with the BFF. I was simply amazed! We never stop to think how intricate our bodies are. With the functionality we are given to walk, run, sit, chew, and even think ... how are we able to state that there is not a God? It baffles me. I was completely and utterly awed. 

If you get the change to visit this exhibition... i urge you to. Beware, there are a few rooms that are disturbing(even for me). 




I would continue my post and complain about this and that, but I would rather change the situation I am in so I am able to report my overcoming. May God continue to bless you all!